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An academic who was sexually abused as a child and developed multiple personality disorder sees her autobiography published this week.

[Thanks to a commenter for providing this fascinating and unexpected link to this interesting MK/abuse book which came out this month. If you want to know how this dissociative disorder ((and other facets of dissociation)) can be manipulated in the most extreme way (for the purpose of creating programmed multiple slaves; it's very possible, it is incredibly naive to assume that it hasn't been going on) please see Illuminati Formula (which obviously has it's fair share of problems) and more personal accounts from people like Cathy O'Brien. Remember 'Alice' (in Wonderland, created by pedophile Lewis Carroll) is the archetype for this kind of MK/abuse/mind-fuckery (the story's themes work perfectly in programming, see the linked Disney/Wonderland post), so releasing this book under that name is even more significant. Note the fractured words MK symbolism I've discussed many times before on the above book covers.]

Alice Jamieson, as she is now known, was raped repeatedly by her father throughout her childhood. The experience left her with complex psychiatric problems yet she went on to a successful academic career.

When her injuries forced her to abandon that career, she began writing about her experiences as a cathartic exercise. But last year her book was the subject of a bidding war by publishers. The rights were won by Macmillans and it is published on 1st May entitled: Today I’m Alice.

Alice is now 40. She began suffering sexual and other abuse by her father when she was two years old. She was systematically raped from the age of five.

An early memory is being put in a cardboard box with the family dog, with a choke chain around her neck and her father telling her to keep quiet whilst he occasionally tugged on the chain to scare her.

Another memory is of a night when she was five years old. Before he raped her, her father ‘abused’ all of her teddies and threw them out of bed.

On occasions he would bring her mother’s cigarette lighter into Alice’s bedroom and flick it by her feet. There was a mirror on the wall facing Alice’s bed so it looked to Alice as though her feet were on fire.

On other occasions he would bring a jam jar with spiders in it and threaten to let them loose over her stomach. [these are many standard traumas we've discussed before here at this blog]

From the age of four Alice had regular bouts of cystitis. This was so frequent that at about ten years she had to visit a children’s hospital once a month for over a year.

Her parents broke up when she was 17, but the abuse by her father continued relentlessly. To cope with her situation, Alice threw herself into her academic studies. She went to university and gained a first class honours degree, but each time she returned home her father raped her.

Eventually when she confronted him about the abuse he raped her again and beat her up so badly she required hospital attention.

She had been undergoing psychiatric care since she was in her early teens, but now developed schizophrenia and began periods of self-harm and drug and alcohol abuse. She spent some time as an in-patient at a psychiatric hospital.

Each time she was abused Alice dissociated [I explained this a lot in the Alice in Wonderland/Disney post], detaching herself from the emotional and physical assaults, by creating other ‘personalities’, so that she – Alice – did not remember any of the abuse until adulthood.

This was a coping mechanism that was subsequently diagnosed as ‘dissociative identity disorder’, or ‘multiple personality disorder’ as it is more generally known. It is a rare condition, and involves ‘splitting’ the personality into different people, who often have no knowledge of the others.

In spite of her horrific home life she was successful at school, gaining 11 GCE ‘O’ levels and 2 ‘A’ Grade A levels. She went on to university where she gained a first class honours degree and later went on to study for her PhD. But she had to abandon this due to psychiatric problems and has worked only intermittently since.

In 1997 Alice reported her abuse to the police, who interviewed her father but decided that there was insufficient evidence to press charges.

However, she also took her case to lawyers, Pictons of Luton, who specialise in child abuse claims. They made a claim on her behalf to the Criminal Injuries Compensation Authority (CICA), who make payments to those who have suffered injury as a result of criminal acts.

They were instrumental in achieving a CICA award to Alice of £434,500, which may be the second highest such settlement.

The case was managed at Pictons first by partner Tracey Emmott, who heads Pictons’ child abuse team and also represents survivors of the abuse at Haut de la Garenne in Jersey, and then by Emma Anthony.

Both are warmly acknowledged by Alice for their help not only in winning the award but for their support during the period when she felt nobody else believed her.

‘The CICA decision and the amount awarded is a clear acknowledgement of the seriousness of our client’s abuse, and properly reflects the devastating and long term effect it has had on her life,’ says Tracey Emmott.

‘We’re pleased to have won such appropriate and deserved compensation for our client, which we believe may be one of the highest ever awards in an abuse case.’

‘The circumstances of Alice’s ordeal are truly horrific and even among the grisly and humiliating stories I encounter as a child abuse lawyer I’d have to say that I still find it almost unbelieveable, especially of a parent towards his daughter.’

‘We’re naturally delighted by the size of the award,’ says Emma Anthony. ‘From Alice’s perspective, the result means she has achieved formal recognition of what happened to her and a resultant sense of closure. But it’s also important in terms of the wider fight to raise the profile of child abuse. The recognition of the dreadful taboo surrounding this whole area is now becoming much more widespread, and so encouraging greater insight, understanding and recognition for the survivors.’

‘The hope must be that, as this awareness grows, the myths surrounding abuse are broken down and the perpetrators are brought into the open, the instances of abuse will diminish.’

Alice Jamison’s claim against the CICA was managed by Pictons on a ‘no win, no fee’ arrangement, but they chose to accept only half the fees to which the agreement entitled them.

Here is another pertinent review (showing some other common MK themes [masks/mirrors/etc]) from this link:

When Alice was a teenager strange things started happening to her. Hours of her life disappeared. She heard voices shouting at her, telling her she was useless, a failure. In her dreams she watched a girl being sexually abused and awoke pleased that she wasn't that girl, curious who she was, and why these dreams haunted her. As she grew older the dreams grew more shocking, more detailed, more real.

Staring at herself in the mirror she'd catch her face changing like a rubber mask and would see someone else staring out from her eyes. Today I'm Alice describes the extraordinary journey of a teenager drowning the voices with alcohol, battling anorexia and OCD, to a young woman slowly losing control to 'the children' growing from voices in her head to full-blown personalities.

Alice suffered the despotic regimes of the psychiatric wards as she slipped further into mental illness until she was finally diagnosed with multiple personality disorder. When her 'alters' were revealed in therapy she discovered how each one had their own memories of abuse and a full picture of her childhood finally emerged. Moving, ultimately inspiring, this memoir written with Clifford Thurlow is a gripping account of a rare condition, and the remarkable story of a courageous woman's battle for sanity.

Going into a few basic things here that I've already covered in random posts in the past and most readers will probably be aware of, but I felt like writing on it today. Note the symbolic book covers (frazzled barbie doll; her dissociative spiral eyes, 2nd one twin pillars either side of the sex-kitten [they should have put her in leopard print]). This post is more generally about MK as a whole, and not MK'd sex slaves specifically (that will be saved for future MCM/sex-slave industry post).

Anyway, my main point there was that you need to come at this field from that angle, people's minds are known to be fragmented/split/fractured/etc in the day-to-day reality of this fucked up (by design) earth... why wouldn't the fucking evil sons of bitches over at the CIA (and believe me there is no shortage of sadistic parents/guardians/care-workers/etc out there willing to help 'them' due to delusional patriotism/monetary benefit/blackmail/etc) not use this to their advantage? By creating their own split/fragmented-personality slaves... to me this is just a logical certainty that this would be going on for innumerable reasons. With the 'elite's centuries of inbreeding (and obviously multigenerational abuse; it's what happens when you have total power/wealth with nothing to do; greed, corruption, perversion inevitably results), it is easy to see how they are controlled (their children anyway; who grow up still being controlled, eventually becoming controllers of the generation below them and so on) and why you never see a member of the 'elite' coming out revealing some truth (MK'd disinfo agents aside). We need a global revolution from the bottom down (don't expect the pharmaceutical company slaves [AKA all people working in mainstream medicine/psychology ("Here, try this new drug... it's not like I'm being given kickbacks by the drug company to give you this dangerous psychotropic or anything... trust me... I'm a doctor!")] to do anything about it) to repair our fragmented collective consciousness... this is why [all] "evil" occurs [you think people like Hitler, mass murderers etc aren't MK'd?/gone through abuse (most child abusers/pedophiles are as such because they were themselves abused as a child, for the CIA/intelligence agencies)... look at GWB as another prime example of this], pure and simple. And of course the possibilities with MK are endless (any programming script works as long as it has the right dissociative/confusing/dissorientating/cryptic/etc themes, doesn't have to be Oz/Alice in Wonderland/etc, I'm sure there are many built from scratch by the CIA that have then been made into mainstream movies and franchises... child abuse isn't a necessity either; as people have been programmed as adults quite successfully [see Sirhan Sirhan; though the trauma he went through in Palestine helped in cumulatively splitting his mind, making him easier to program and kill RFK]) which is probably why I'm so interested in it as there are so many things involved with it that we'll just never hear about [as I've said, numerous traumas etc existing only in the twisted minds of the programmer and the most traumatized part of a victim's mind], it allows for lots of "creative thinking" ;p.
In the UK, MI6 (all of the intelligence agencies are so interconnected that you can pretty much say CIA/MI6/Mossad/etc, working for; and also controlling [it's a fucked up/totally insane paradigm, hence why no one must talk about it] 'the elite') are very much on top of this; as are the media in their hilarious MK suggestive tone. I had a feeling there was going to be more in the below magazine than just literal cats ;p as in a few pages after that piece they portray the media's various MK'd stars/sex-kittens dressed in animal-print, firstly leopard print... with my recent focus this is just a perfect sync (or perhaps something more conscious?) that I had to post.

The doppelganger/doubles-centric readers will like this movie I think ;p (undoubtedly many doubles out there for politicians and the odd celebrity; so it is a legitimate reality tunnel in my opinion, please see this forum for more [though I disagree with a lot of it; photoshop/surgery/facial changes when switching to alter/lighting/etc are the likely explanations in most cases, definitely not all though], there is some really great MK info in there too such as on Brooke Burke [final couple of posts Nov 11th by lostworld] Edit: Should have said; they are very much connected (MK stuff + the doubles stuff) as some of these MK'd 'stars' will have backups/doubles/etc waiting in the wings should something fuck up in their programming or whatever. And there are obviously lots of other resources out there on the net on the subject, if it interests you google.) I view this movie's use of the doppelganger theme, more as symbolic of their MPD (mirrors/creating double images are a big part of MK; help create splits as you start viewing the mirror-image as an individual rather than it as yourself [with the aid of drugs, sensory overload, trauma etc; leading to the mind fracturing and that 'individual'/alter-personality can then be programmed]) and the double life they have to lead (i.e the public beautiful facade, and the reality of their tortured/broken minds). Had to post this poster for The Broken. Note one eye still present, not removed along with the rest of the shattered head/mind [shattered glass/shattered mind; just go back through blog, main post is this one I guess but you can search through it yourself easily using below tags/top left search bar], illustrating perfectly what's written about in this blog, looking for a trailer. Doubles/Twins/Twinning/Mirror images are a massive part of MK is basically the overarching point to do with this movie.

"A woman wakes up in the hospital following an encounter with a mysterious doppelganger. Her life begins to turn into a nightmare as she tries to come to grips with the incident and learn the woman's true identity."
Lena Headey [note her shattered Head/mind] is Sarah Connor in Terminator Chronicles and she was Angelika in uber-occult/MK Brothers Grimm [Heath Ledger MK'd ritual sacrifice; loads more stuff out there, get googling] amongst other things (Queen in 300 etc). She is the daughter of an English police officer (checkerboard), who moved to Bermuda to train other officers... probably an ulterior motive for that as it was timed perfectly for the birth. Check her wiki for other 'syncs'. As expected; this MK'd 'star' comes with a butterfly tattoo, among others (lotus flower).

A cannibal cult mother who tortured her son in a locked cellar while relatives skinned him and forced him to eat his own flesh has been jailed for nine years.

Klara Mauerova, 31 - a member of a sinister religious cult and her sister Katerina led the sickening torture of her eight-year-old son Ondrej and his ten year-old brother Jakub.

A court in Brno in Czech Republic heard how relatives partially skinned Ondrej and forced him to eat his own flesh. [I pasted information briefly mentioning the skinning alive trauma programming technique in this X-Files post ('The child that is not loved is skinned alive before the other children'; in this case the other child being the other brother) and also mentioned its use in MK randomly in the Kylie post]

The judge also jailed Katerina, 35, for ten years for her role in the sickening abuse.

The two boys had told judges how their mother and relatives had stubbed cigarettes out on their bare skin, whipped them with belts, and tried to drown them. They were also sexually abused and forced to cut themselves with knives. [self-mutilation; all these things described are standard traumas used in MK]

The terrified youngsters said they were kept in cages or handcuffed to tables and made to stand in their own urine for days.

The sick sisters - both members of weird religious cult the Grail Movement - refused to reveal why they tortured the brothers.

But state prosecutor Zuzana Zamoravcova said: 'Their aim was to make the boys blindly serve their religious goals.' [Standard cult-mind control programming]

Judge Pavel Goth said as he sentenced the women: 'Their aim was to create a person with a completely broken will. Ondrej and Jakub were repeatedly psychologically and physically tyrannised and held in locked rooms.'

Another defendant, 34-year-old Barbora Skrlova, was also jailed for five years for her part in the torture. Three others who took part in the abuse were also given jail terms.

Hana Basova, 28, and Jan Skrla, 25, were sentenced to seven years each while another man, Jan Turek, was jailed for five years.

Skrlova had posed as an innocent 13-year-old girl when police arrived to free the boys. She later ran away to Norway but was traced earlier this year by Czech police who brought her back to face trial.

Mauerova at first admitted abusing her children but she said she had been manipulated by her sister Katerina and Skrlova.

All three of them had been part of the Grail Movement cult which claims to have hundreds of followers in Britain as well as tens of thousands of others world wide. [no doubt, millions of MK victims out there, hundreds of thousands of which are members of cults living in their communes]

The sick abuse was discovered when a neighbour installed a TV baby monitor to keep watch on his new daughter.

But it picked up the signal from an identical monitor next door showing one of the victims beaten, naked and chained in a cellar.

Mauerova had installed it so she could gloat over her victims' suffering from the comfort of her kitchen.

The defendants are expected to launch an appeal.

My post on this case here [more on the woman who posed as a 13 year old and other relevant MK things] and Daily Mail link here.

Below is a video (full one here from the BBC) of a 16 year old (15 at the time of his kidnapping) who has been traumatized by Guantanamo thugs and is being interviewed by Canadian Intelligence thugs in the video (the Sky News piece on this specifically says that he is in a "confused state", he originally thinks the intelligence people are there to help him...), watched Harold and Kumar: Escape from Guantanamo Bay the other day and it was entirely depressing; where they joke about the sexual abuse that goes on there (Muslims are too proud to admit such things would happen to them, religious brainwashing is always helpful to abusers) as the guards force the inmates to give them a "cockmeat sandwich" (blowjob). I do not want to go in detail into it but it shows vaguely how the Skull and Bones Yale fraternity/Secret Society really runs the show in America and their obsession with total control over everything (which obviously the masses won't pick up on). I did however enjoy Rob Corddry's portrayal of a brainwashed republican politician tool who is always doing the "horns" hand sign. Guantanamo Bay is specifically designed to create terrorists, not the other way round (split the inmates minds through the trauma that is documented to go on in Guantanamo).

Synchronistically there was another film that aired on the 28th pertaining to mind control (probably move away from mind control at some point), Session 9 on the Sci Fi Channel, the same date as they completed a (I speculate) mind control blood sacrifice ritual. Like Zoolander, (also aired on the 28th, there were probably a lot more Mind Control Movies that I didn't see that day!) it was released in the year, 2001 and was also in part, about MPD/DID/Mind Control. The evil genius that is my Sky Plus box (TiVo in the US) allowed me to record it and it contained all sorts of themes I've spoken of involved in Mind Control, which I fully expect now in these types films (and am rarely dissapointed). I chose the Japanese (?) poster because it is more symbolic, you hear a victim of MPD/DID (Mary Hobbes) being interviewed, the spinning of the tape (in poster below) is focused on hypnotically, there are loads of grid patterns (it is set in a mental institution, this is why mental institutions have so much of them, to make them more insane), the very first shot of the film confuses up with down as a chair is seemingly stuck to the ceiling before the camera spins 180 degrees to the normal view. At one point the doctor describes how "she appears to be going into a dissociative state, switching alters" (paraphrased). I think you are viewing the film primarily from Gordon's perspective (guy sitting on stairs covering his face, you hear what he thinks will happen in his mind, when he comes home to his family with flowers.... at the end you find out it did not go as he'd hoped), he is the one that "snaps/cracks/shatters/..." but his mind dissociates and he thinks it is someone else until a person (Caruso) he is hallucinating tells him"you're asleep... would you wake up... open your eyes!" and he finally realises what is really going on. Look out for yellow police tape, spinning, numerology and symbolism synchs, and loads of other stuff (at the beginning"Brass" from CSI: Las Vegas walks with Caruso from Miami, he speaks of bats and makes the wing motion, see top picture with upside down bat above Alice). I really enjoyed it despite it starring the painful to watch David Caruso (he is far more bearable in this than in CSI: Miami mind), the characters are very realistic and believable.


It was set in an actual mental hospital which closed down in 1985 (=23), the "mammoth brick facility" was built in 1871 (=17 and the 71/17 too) info from this review. As I said, the movie aired on the Sci-Fi Channel on the 28th of June, the 6th month, so Session 9 shows the mirror/reversal type symbolism (69 sexual allusion). Mary Hobbes' alters are: Princess (her childlike alter), Billy (all seeing alter), and Simon (murderous alter). The doctor asks, "Where does the Princess Live." and 'Simon says' "In the Tongue, because she talks a lot" (sexual allusion) and "Billy lives in the eyes, because "he sees everything". Showing the compartmentalized mind, as this is one way (they arn't neuropsychologists) an MPD victim can verbalize this compartmentalization (as well as the different characteristics ((super human memory, pliability etc.)) of the individual alters contained in the different compartments created in the mind through trauma). This also adds weight to my argument that individual parts of the face are used in advertising as a method of mind control en-masse. 'Simon' is rage; that dwells within us all which is more likely to be released when you are put through significant trauma (the Simon alter comes out when Mary is scared by her brother making her fall on her doll so she kills him and her parents) and just simple stress in general makes you more susceptible to 'the crazy' (AKA: "Simon", "primal fear, base anger" seen in Jacob's Ladder).

Also described in the movie were allegations of Satanic Ritual Abuse, where it is described how her father came into her room, "Wearing a black robe, her grandparents and her mother all have black robes, they would go to the forest on a full moon, and group orgies would ensue, she was forced to watch as her mother cut this babies heart out and ate the flesh and drunk the blood, she was forced to have abortions and whatnot." (paraphrased) Places like this, insane asylums, and boarding schools or "industrial schools" like Haut de la Garenne, a school for "young people of the lower classes of society and neglected children" (and places like these) because these are people who have no voice and no one will believe what they would have to say anyway (i.e "this high society person abused me.." "Shut up!.. how could you say such a thing about such an important man!"). Jersey is obviously a good place for it because it is so out of the way and private, which is where the elite go to practise their "Satanic" rituals like Bohemian Grove in the "United States". Using Cathy O'Brien's tragic story as an example, her daughter Kelly has been kept in places like these (by the state) where she does not receive the necessary treatment, she spent much of her youth in the above "'Cum'ber'land'" House (note kid with butterfly wings logo, link) and then later on Try Angle House (look at these try angle awards...) which resides at 3133 (31/13 33) Long Blvd, Nash(teeth)ville(vile), Tennesse (ten, see, mirrored en and es) 37203 (777, 23) (link). The majority of care homes and such are legit and are only seeking to help those in their care, but there is a small (but extremely significant and sizeable) minority that are actively creating (encouraged by "Illuminati" agents) mind control slaves (who then go out and stab a bunch of people or whatever, like this guy 28 years old who allegedly killed 8, arrested at 7pm) and ritually abusing those they are supposed to care for. Without the Mind Control aspect (but still relating to) this abuse/trauma can create an emotional void in the person leading them to become a psychotic serial killer (with or without the help of hypnotic mind control), which brings me squarely to the title of this piece, Nobody Loves Alice (which I think is a reference to what I've been talking about). With the Mind Control aspect, these (random killings) are a direct result of Mind Control programming in places like Springfield Hospital and various others that produce results like this, note the time the article was last updated 3:23, another BBC article here, a man stabbed his wife 77 times on the 17th..., Guardian article: "A mental health trust was criticised today after two patients killed people over the same weekend after being released by psychiatric specialists, a report said."